Kaitlyn Thomas, a weary wife and mother, is taking a much needed getaway with her friends. All she wants to do is relax and rejuvenate on her weekend escape to the beach. Having a drink at the bar with the girls sounds like the perfect way to unwind. That is, until Kaitlyn hears a familiar voice from the stage that shakes her to her core. She grapples with her memory until Chris King, the lead singer of the band, walks up to her and eliminates the questions in her mind.
Chris King…the misunderstood bad boy who once saved her in ways that no one else could.
Kaitlyn’s friends beg to know the story behind this mystery man. Forced to revisit a painful past from which she has spent years trying to heal, Kaitlyn’s recollection of Chris awakens intense feelings that she has kept buried deep inside her heart. Has time changed him, or is he still the same person Kaitlyn fell in love with so many years ago?
Marriage vows are sacred, but temptation is a powerful thing.
Seeing Chris again has caused a war between her head and her heart. In the end, which one will win the battle? Facing a difficult decision, Kaitlyn just wants to be sure of one thing when she walks away from this weekend—no regrets.
This is an emotionally gripping story of love, loss, redemption, and hope.
Please excuse me for a moment while I pick up the shattered pieces of what was once my heart. I swear to you that they are strewn throughout my house; little tiny fragments, just everywhere. So Much It Hurts is the perfect title for this book, because honestly, this was painful. I think it might have been one of the most difficult books I’ve ever read. Not because it was poorly written or the story line was lacking, but because it just tore me up. It was painful to read. I loved it So Much It Hurts!
Kaitlyn Thomas is your typical stay-at-home mom. She dreams of bigger things – a life that could have been, while folding laundry and sorting socks. If you’re a stay-at-home momma, like me, you understand the feeling all too well. It’s tough having a thankless job that pays in love instead of cold hard cash, but at the same time, those few moments when you do get “paid” make it all worthwhile. Needless to say, it was easy for me to connect with Kaitlyn and her frustrations.
Through some act of God and a lot of whining, Kaitlyn is able to secure herself a weekend away with her girlfriends. Michael, Kaitlyn’s very busy husband, was apprehensive about “letting” her go away on this little trip. He basically lives and breathes work. It’s all-consuming, and has caused him to kind of slack on his husbandly duties. Anyway, Kaitlyn’s escape from reality turns into a very painful walk down memory lane. While at the beach, she runs into Chris King. In high school, Chris was a misunderstood young man. He spent some time in juvie which, of course, labeled him a bad seed. Truth be told, he was anything but. He saved Kaitlyn. He helped her find a reason to live. He taught what love could be–what love should be. Unfortunately, fate was not on their side and they were forced to part ways. Now, 8 years later, they’ve found one another again. Only one tiny problem… Kaitlyn’s married. And the mother to an adorable little boy. She can’t just walk away from that to follow her heart. She made vows. You’re supposed to keep vows, right?
Holy hell, this was one intense read and worth every stinkin’ star I gave it. Melanie Dawn blew me away! Best of all, she didn’t blow smoke up my ass at the end of the book. She didn’t do what I thought she would at all. She kept it real, and although I HATED it, I absolutely love and admire her for it.
Kaitlyn’s character was everything I would imagine her to be. The way she reacted to the shit storm that was her life… I don’t even have words. The fear she had to live with for YEARS was simply unreal. I myself have never been in an abusive relationship, and for that I am immensely grateful. Reading about the torture Kaitlyn had to endure was mind boggling and quite frankly, stomach churning.
Chris King… What can I say about this man? See those pieces of my heart over there? Yeah, they broke for him. The man COULD NOT WIN. He loved Kaitlyn with every piece of his heart and soul, and still it wasn’t enough. No matter what he did, it was never enough. He deserves his happily ever after. He deserves rainbows and butterflies. Just sitting here typing about him has me desperately trying to hold back the tears. I can’t… I don’t…. I just want him to be happy. He has the most understanding heart. The most beautiful soul. He deserves the good in life.
I couldn’t help but smile back, blinking back my tears.
I’ll be honest with you, when I first read about Michael, I hated him. I wanted him gone. And then a funny thing happened… I kinda, sorta, started to feel the complete opposite about him. I think in time, you’ll grow to love and appreciate him, too.
If you haven’t guessed it yet, I whole heartedly recommend reading So Much It Hurts. It’s one that you will love to hate, or hate to love…either way. It’s intense and emotionally challenging. It’s not your typical cookie cutter romance novel. You’ll fall in love with Kaitlyn and Chris…oh, and I can’t forget Michael. Ugh, just trust me on this one. It’s one you won’t want to miss!
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ABOUT MELANIE DAWN:
Melanie Dawn is a thinker, a dreamer, and a hopeless romantic. When her head isn’t in the clouds, she spends her time as a jack of all trades to her family. Melanie resides in the hills of North Carolina with her husband, her three children, and her cat. She enjoys lazy summer afternoons cruising around the lake on the pontoon boat with her family.
Melanie graduated from UNC-Chapel Hill with a BA in Psychology and earned her MA in School Counseling from Appalachian State University. She spent the first six years after graduate school as a middle school counselor. Those were years she deems as some of the best years of her life. That is, until she had children of her own. The last seven years have been spent as a stay-at-home mom. She has learned some tough life lessons, like what the inner absorbent pellets of a diaper look like scattered in the washing machine. She has also learned the strength of the willpower of a two year old lacking a nap. Through it all, Melanie has learned how to roll with the punches and appreciate the time she has been able to spend at home with her children.
Now that her last child has started Kindergarten, Melanie is ready to add a new chapter in her life. That chapter begins with her debut novel—So Much It Hurts.
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